Thursday, January 8, 2015

Now let me explain here now....

So I put that I'm a SAHM in my profile and to me, I am.  But to be completely honest I'm a stay at home mom to two beautiful, sweet and loving pups.  I know, it may seem like a lie but I love them like they were children (only they're more awesome).  And studies are showing that it is possible to love an animal with the intensity that people love their children.

So I feel vindicated in saying that I'm a stay at home mom because I stay at home-except when I HAVE to go out- and take care of little human like things I love.

Lets just say that I'm of the non-overpopulation group in the world.  My boyfriend and I are too happy where we're at now to have kiddo's.  I'm far too selfish and he's far too "kids drive me nuts".  So when we die we'll leave whatever is left of our investments to a college or non-profit we love and have a bench dedicated to us.  We're planning well enough to have plenty of money to take care of ourselves when we get old.  That's a question people often ask or rather in "well who's going to take care of you when your old then!".  Us, through smart spending our lives debt free and investing as much as we can.  That's how we're going to take care of us when we need it.  Heck, we'll get way more money when we retire than we even spend a month now!

So don't worry...we've got all our bases covered, we're happy and settled quite staunch like in our decision.  Now it's just time to have FUN!!!

Like at Disney World kind of fun which is where we're going next month.  Yup!  I said Disney World, last minute trip at the best time to visit the park.  Least amount of people, smallest lines, cheapest hotels, etc, etc.  Tim's so excited he could skip.  While I'm excited too I'm a little worried I'll overwhelm myself with all the whirly gigs and what's a whizzles around me.  I'll just have to practice some self care. Right???  Right then.


Monday, January 5, 2015

Whatever Bitch...

I find this cross stitch pattern absolutely delightful!  Many people call me a bitch (using it in a negative way) but you know what....I OWN that word, I AM that word and not in the negative way but in the positive way.  I talked with my therapist about it and told her how I felt about it and who had recently called me a bitch and she supported how I felt stating that in a healthy family system bitch is not a bad thing.  It means one is assertive, courageous, honest, calls it like she see's it plus we set healthy boundaries that we don't let people cross even though they don't like it.  Her example was a family meeting where the "bitch" is not present and someone says "gosh, I wish Christy were here because she would tell us what we need to hear.  I appreciate her perspective"

So here's to your inner bitch, may you use it only for good, may you OWN it and respect those who are my fellow bitches!  Hooray for us!!!!

For some more fun snarky cross stitch patterns check out Subversive Cross Stitch by Julie Jackson.

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Hmmm, 5 Lane round-a-bout you say????

Hilarious....absolutely, delightfully, hilarious.  The famous 5 lane round a bout in Paris as we are leaving the city.  Truthfully I give my brother maaaad props for even driving in Paris.  It's one big cluster fuck (pardon my French).  We saw people get sideswiped and just keep driving like nothing happened and there were NO parking spots anywhere.  It seemed like everyone was driving their cars but they also seemed to be parked in every..available...parking spot in the city.  We ended up in a lot about a half mile from our hotel, so not too shabby.

I'm sitting here, as blogger says it's uploading my video but is it REALLY?  There's no indicator and it could just be stuck and how would I know?  Oh my uncensored mind is not for the faint of heart.
Lets see if I can REALLY confuse blogger and try to upload another video.  This time of my little kitty niece Lefty purring up a love infused storm.
Hope the videos work OK.  I suppose I'll just check them when I'm done.  They really are quite nice.

So one of my favorite things in Belgium is the way people drive.  There isn't any of the passive aggression that Americans have.  The left lane is solely for passing.  If you are in the left lane passing and someone comes up behind you that person gets to the right and lets the left passer pass.  It's the coolest thing I've ever seen.  It made me so happy to see and I wish we Americans could figure out how the left lane really works.  It was pa-retty sweet I tell ya.

So now that I have a few blog posts under my belt I'm wondering if my sense of humor is being perceived as it's intended.  I hope someone will comment and let me know what they think about that...and GO!!


Thursday, January 1, 2015

It's a brand new year and maybe a brand new you!!

Happy New Year everyone!!!  It's a wonderful 20 degrees in Minnesota today.  I wouldn't have it any other way though as I love cold weather.  I think it's part of my "safety cocoon" as my therapist would say.  Whatever the reason, it makes me happy.

Do you make New Years Resolutions?  I don't really believe in making them as change doesn't just happen overnight but slowly, over a long period of time.  However, I certainly won't hold it against you if you make them and I sincerely hope they work well for you.

Some things I'd like to accomplish this year are to sew more clothing with prints.  Lose at least 50 lbs and if anyone has any suggestions for treating night eating I'd love to hear them, it's the only reason I'm fat at this point as my eating during the day is clean and sparse.  Yet another difficult share there...
I would like to pick up the sewing business a bit as it forces me to step outside of my comfort zone and I absolutely LOVE designing my own pattern for things and custom fitting them.  Although I don't think I'd ever be ready to design my own patterns for public release it sure is fun to do them for a certain client.  Right now my challenge is to make lined curtains for a favorite client.  I really need to get them done before we go to Florida because she and I trade sewing work for doggie daycare/boarding and that would help immensely in our Florida budget.  Not to complain because they are taken care of so well and have other furry kiddo's to play with all day but their "hotel" is almost the same price as ours for the week.  So chop chop on the curtains I say.

Another thing I'd like to accomplish is to become more tech savvy.  I'm not quite sure how I'm going to accomplish this.  I'm not sure if I should look for a good book or learn by trial and error but it's the simple things like designing my own banners or changing the design on this blog, which I HATE by the way, or just adding bling to it.  I mean, can I do everything in Pages on my Mac?  See, that's one of those trial and error things.

I started a program at my local college for advertising and design but I found that I really, really hate advertising and there was no way I was getting through that program without learning to love it.  However, I missed out on the design aspect.  I've been thinking about taking a class in design there but it's a little far away from my home and going 5 days a week would get expensive in gas.  I know, excuses, excuses!

Long blog post, I'll stop there for now and hope you have a wonderful New Years Day and know I'll be thinking about you all!


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

You're ON!!!!!!

I've been dared to do a Top 5 by Gillian at Crafting a Rainbow and I've chosen to do the Top 5 things you don't know about me in order to introduce myself properly.

  1. I'm completely social networking inept.  I'm going to learn as I go and I hope to learn a lot because I'm pretty straight and narrow right now.  I've got to be honest and also share that I'm just socially inept period.  Really.....totally....
  2. I'm incredibly intuitive to the point that it's bad.  I notice things about people that they aren't ready to admit or confront.  I get in trouble as people don't focus on the positive things I feel and notice, only the difficult ones.
  3. I've been married and happily divorced.  Great guy but not for me.  I'm OK with it!
  4. I've been in therapy for 8 years and suffer from mental health issues that are completely stabilized.  No embarrassment over mental health issues as many people suffer from them.  Sad thing is that they are the result of my childhood which wasn't so pretty.  Good thing is that I have an absolutely awesome healthcare team taking care of me and I work and have worked really hard to get better.
  5. I have ADHD.  Weird as an adult as most cases of childhood ADHD resolve by the time kids are 18.  I was analyzed and diagnosed by an expert in ADHD and that's the first we thought about me having it.  My life is sooooo much better having it treated.  It's hard to follow instructions in a pattern if it's untreated and you can't understand the steps and you have to read them 5 times and you feel like a dummy but you're really NOT.  You forget things all the time, you have to document your life on a calendar, which I STILL have to do.  Ive been called out many times for my poor memory.  I can't help it though!
That's my Top 5 which is uncomfortably revealing but in some ways cathartic.  If you have any questions or comments about anything I've said please feel free to contact me.  I'm always happy to help in any way I can!


Tuesday, December 30, 2014

I've been inspired to restart blogging by Gillian at Crafting a Rainbow.  I'm thankful for a reason to start up again.  I've had 200 page views with only 10 posts!  I couldn't believe how many people have been checking me out.

I've not been doing much lately except trying to handle my anxiety through the holidays.  It's often unbearable, even with medication.  But there have also been a few other things that have added to my situation which complicates EVERYTHING.  In any case I've been doing a lot of reading lately.  My favorite has been anything by Gillian Flynn.  I can't wait until the movie version of Sharp Objects comes out.  I really loved reading Gone Girl too.  I think it's one of the best books I've ever read.

I also went on my much anticipate trip to Belgium.  I had a wonderful time visiting Paris for three days, Ghent and Amsterdam.  It's such a beautiful country.  Even in mid October there was a lush green landscape.

It was quite a change from the brown, square plowed fields I left in Minnesota.  I also never saw a lake the entire time I was there.
The Eiffel tower was one of the most powerful things I ever saw and it was a bonus that it was straight center when we opened the window in our hotel room!

But being there, in person, topped all.
In Amsterdam we visited the Red Light District, Anne Franks House (line was 3 hours long so we didn't get the chance to actually go in:-( but the Red Light District was incredibly interesting and far larger than I anticipated it being.  The women there were beautiful although I vacillate on whether I am pro or anti the oldest profession based on what it does/means for women.  Anyway, a tangent.
This is my brother not too happy being in the Redlight District with his new expensive camera, he was afraid some big guy was going to come out and smash it because you're not allowed to take photos of the women there.  He didn't even have it in his hands though or even have the lens cap off!  I said "when did you become so anal?".  Crazy kid.

I had to take a photo of the place I bought my marijuana to try.  Which, btw, I NEVER need to try again.  I hated every second of it.  But it was an experience I had to try.  The second photo is the Condomerie.  A store committed entirely to condoms.  So interesting.  I bought a novelty that was a condom stretched over a toadstool and painted toadstool colors on top.  Silly but unique.

That's all for now.  I'll be back soon with more Belgium stories and what I'm up to.

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Hmmmm, a month between postings is not at all acceptable.  There's not been much to share though. I'm sewing up a storm trying to finish a couple things for my trip to Belgium.  Bought some nice, soft wonderful Ugg's and contemplated the existence and fate of the world.
Yep, existence and fate....that's a lot for most people to comprehend but for me it's just another day in the life of.....ME!

I bought this pattern called the Avocado Hoodie from Seamster to make and wear on the airplane.  I love the front pockets.  Airplanes are always cold so I plan on wearing warm comfy pants, this sweatshirt and my Uggs.  Hopefully I will be comfortable enough to sleep a little as my flight is an overnight flight.

When I finish the hoodie I'm going to post a photo.
That's all for the moment, philosophy and planning.  Those are my two main goals right now.